After the initial excitement wore off (more so from my friends than anyone else *cough* parents *cough*) the nerves started to set in. Now I am more terrified than anything. If I'm being honest here...
I started to realize that the well-being of children and families are semi-going to be in my hands. I will be interacting with families who have been through a lot, which is fine. But then I remembered that people don't always react to me in all the same ways. That makes me a little scared. I am not even entirely sure why. Probably because I have never really had this much responsibility, especially for other people. I need relax, I know, but I never freak out about anything really, so my time has finally come. Well, I wouldn't say I am freaking per say, but I am sure I will eventually.
I just need to keep reminding myself that God is in ALL control and I shouldn't worry about it. So I am trying that. And everyone else seems to think I am capable, so maybe I should stop listening to myself for once...
Okay. That was it. I need to go find someway to warm up because my dad refuses to warm up our house at all. My nose is cold and my fingernails are turning purple...
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