Saturday, January 31, 2009


Vehicles are a funny thing. When they break....they break. My car's broken state is $1200 worth of broken. It's only worth like $2500. Funny how things work. I'd be angry at this, BUT my uncle, who has been wanting to buy my car for years now, is going to buy it. And I found the one I want to get today. Woo.

Saturn is awesome. They are letting me test drive it for the weekend. But I think I'm gunna get it. It's a 2007 Saturn Aura. Loaded. Minus leather seats, but I don't want leather seats anymore. I don't want PETA protesters to trash my car.. hehe.

Anyways. That's the update on my car. I will have a new car next week. It makes me sad to say goodbye to the other one though. It was my first car. We've been through a lot together...I'll miss her.

Ok. I'm done. My computer battery is gunna poop out soon.


Friday, January 30, 2009


I just realized that my heading had a typo. It said "always find joy in the SIMPLY things". Why did no one tell me? :) It is like I have been metaphorically wandering around this blog with broccoli in my teeth and no one told me. I guess I have THOSE friends.

I kid, I kid.

As a random note, I've decided to stop letting little things get me so angry. I was doing good for a while, but I've let negative atmospheres suck me back to the place. I don't want to get angry at stupid, petty things I can't change. No point really.

My dad's side of the family has a blogger account to use to keep all the family in touch and people started talking politics. Now one of my family members who was posting anonymously is pissed because of disagreements on political views, when it was all supposed to be a joke. They are supposed to be adults...allegedly.

one example of things not to get so worked up over. One of many.

That is all I have for now. I'm not sure how much of this will make sense b/c I'm falling asleep.
God Bless..

Monday, January 26, 2009

Bad day.

I fully anticipate having a horrible day tomorrow. I really don't want to have a bad day. But I'll more than likely be forced to speak with a woman who has it out for me. I do not wish to speak with this woman. Even though, I KNOW that it is not my fault, she seems to take out her frustrations on me and I do not want her to do that. She is awful.

What makes people so incredibly horrible to others? I really don't get it. That teacher my mom was student teaching for was horrible, and this woman that I've spoke to twice is horrible...I can't even fathom being like that towards another person. I can't even think of anyone that I'd would give that attitude to. There are so many better ways to approach situations.

Jesus would not approve.

I wish Jesus would show up while I was talking to that lady. I wish he would appear beside her and just stare at her. Not even disapprovingly. Maybe a disappointed look. I wonder what would happen if Jesus just popped up when I was doing things I shouldn't. Like suddenly appear in the passenger seat of my car as I'm verbally assaulting other drivers. And just look at me. I'd stop immediately. I'm sure. I need to start remembering to picture Jesus near me when I'm doing things like that. It's easier to try to not do sinful things when you think like that. I forget to.

I am thinking I need a different job. I am so blessed times one million to even have this job, but I'm gunna start looking. And maybe I"ll find something, maybe I won't. I would like to move out of my house soon..before I lose my mind. But i definitely need a higher paying job before then. Something that'll support an apartment (and all the expenses associated with that), a car payment (b/c this job is murdering my car), and student loan payments. That's way too much. *sigh* Sometimes I think college sets you up to's so odd.

Anyways. I must sleep. For some reason I set an appointment for early tomorrow morning. Not sure why. I'm crazy b/c I hate mornings. I really, I really do.

God Bless.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I'm bad.

I'm writing a blog at work. Oops.

It has been an interesting day. Obama was sworn in as president earlier today. Awesome, first black president, it really does make me happy to see that we are moving beyong racial boundaries. But as a leader, he still makes me nervous. I was unable to watch the speech, but I just read it online. It was a good speech, full of promises. But, he did make it abundantly clear that "change" will occur right away. I hope everyone remembers that.

I also caught something else that I thought was interesting. I'm quoting his speech here: "The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness." From what I gathered, this is in reference to our right to "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness". He seemed to leave out "life" in his reference to this. Here comes genicide.

I am going against everything I believe in by even mentioning politics in my blog. I am so against the discussion of politics for myself, that it bugs me even as I write this. But I had to mention that one bit I picked up on.

And as for Obama, every bit of me hopes that he is a great president. One portion of his speech I particularily enjoyed: "To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds." I pray this is something he lives up to. Really, I do. I pray that he does great and Godly things. Although, I really fear for the future of our unborn children and I will pray daily that they are protected from the people who think they are nothing.

That's all I have to say. I am thoroughly disgusted with myself with even mentioning politics in my blog, because I'm not looking for an argument...I'm just looking to express myself in the blogosphere.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Delray Angels.

Does anyone know the significance of the Delray Angels? As seen here . I past them driving down W. Jefferson on the way to one of my family's homes. At first they weirded me out, but now I find them comforting. That area of Detroit is desolate, and to see the angels on the abandoned buildings, without anyone having touched them, is amazing to me. Most abandoned, and even some not-so-abandoned buildings I see in Detroit are littered with graffiti and gang tags, but these are not. It's probably the angels, or at least, I like to think it is.

So. People think I'm weird. Which, I will admit, I kinda like. But I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Not in weird in a bad way (or least, I'm assuming it's not a bad way), Ray would call it "hilarious" or "funny". Mostly just that I don't think the way most people...rather...most girls do. And that I am definitely okay with. I really am curious to find out what people really think of me. Which is a natural curiosity for most people I would assume. I just never really put much thought to it until now.

In light of all that, I thought I'd include some random facts about me to add to whatever you may already think or know about me:
-I really enjoy sneezing.
-I like grey t-shirts.
-I really am a clutz, and have recently come to accept that...I always hated it... now I embrace it.
-I love weather.
-I don't like Family Guy.
-I hate disagreements.
-I love neutral colors.
-I am currently teaching myself to knit.
-I never get rid of books.
-I used to think I wanted to stay in Michigan, but as of late, I think that's boring and want to experience new places and people and culture.
-Sometimes I think Detroit is beautiful.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Locked in.

I hate feeling locked in my house because it is snowing makes me antsy to know that if I want to go anywhere, that it would be difficult. Such a pain.

That is one reason why I want to move outta Michigan. I hate the feeling of entrapment. I feel that a lot here. Snowing or not. I'm also beginning to wonder if Michigan is a good place to be right now. After reading Zombie's blog about Detroit, and seeing what I see everyday, it's hard to WANT to stay here. And I didn't even want to stay here before all of this. I really hope something can change soon.

I'm not gunna lie. The snow is actually really pretty after it gets dark out and it's still fresh. It glows blue. I like it. It should stop snowing so I can go out and enjoy it.

I did have something intelligent to talk about here, but I have forgotten. Too much chaos right now. Too much. I'll remember it later, and write about it.

Until then, I am going to play with my nieces and nephew and hopes the snow stops soon so I can go out.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


So far my New Years resolution is going well. I've been reading consistently since January 1st. I even started reading a book on prayer to compliment reading the Bible.

Thus far I've noticed that the beginning of Isaiah could be used two ways. Obviously it's a message to God's people. But then, I feel like some of what it says could be said to America today. America is kinda sad. It really is...

I have found, once again, to my shame, that when you look for God, you find Him. None of this chasing after God stuff, God is most definitely chasing after you. You just need to let Him catch you. This is a lesson that I've learned several times throughout my life, and I hope I never have to learn it again. I don't want to let myself become complacent again. At the same time, it's a difficult transition. I feel like there are some things in my life that I need to let go of, and I don't feel right doing I'll have to pray on that. Big time.

My job is getting increasingly difficult. And the worst part is, I don't want to talk about it and I don't feel like I'm good enough for it. But God must think I can handle it because that's where His path has led me. It's just hard trying to constantly re-adjust, since my "team" is going through a lot of changes, and the holidays, it hasn't given me the opportunity to really settle into my groove there maybe it seems more difficult than it actually is.

I am getting restless in my house. It's a really fine line when you are an adult like me, living with your parents. Half of the time they treat me like an adult and the other half I feel like they are doing things that should only be done for teenagers, ya know? It really is a very fine line. One that I'm gingerly walking on, trying not to lose my balance because I don't want to be a brat and short with my parents but sometimes, I just can't help it. I pray God will help me not be a jerk to my parents.

I'm exhausted. I need to start making better choices when it comes to my sleeping habits. I am having a very difficult time giving up my time with my friends... especially when I'm the only one sometimes, who has to get up in the morning. I hate being the only one who has to leave early because of work. It's a serious bummer. So I stay out late, and think I can handle being tired the next day... but I forget that fact that I loathe being tired. It's such a conundrum...<--no spell check, rock on!

Okay. I need to sleep. Tomorrow is going to be a very long day, and I am absolutely dreading it. *sigh*

Thursday, January 1, 2009


So I decided to do some sort of New Year's resolution. Something I usually do not do. I feel like if there is something in your life you need to change, you shouldn't wait 'til the new year to start it. But I am actually going to participate in this silly tradition this year.

I am going to try and focus on my Bible more. As a Christian, this is something I struggle with. I've always been bad at reading my Bible. But I know when I do, everything is so much better, so I can't figure out why it's so difficult for me. It's so weird. Anyways, I am resolving to be better at reading my Bible.

I am making it a point to really read and meditate everyday. And I am going to try and memorize some verses. Something that I've never really tried to do before. And I've always been jealous of those people who can just rattle off verses like it's nothing...I wanna be like that. I'm starting with the Beatitudes in Matthew 5. I've always loved that passage, so why not memorize it, right? So simple.

I also want to make it a point to become a "runner" again. I loved running and now I don't really do all. I want to be hardcore and get up and run outside in the cold, in the morning. After my Unity Group last week, I did realize I need more alone time with God and I realize that running was always a perfect escape for me. Something I do alone, a personal struggle against my own will as well as a perfect time to see and experience and talk to God. I just need to acquire some outdoor running gear for cold weather.

I really hope I follow through with all of these things. I don't want to disappoint myself. And now that I've shared these things with you, maybe ya'll could keep me in check? Perhaps.

Well. That's all from me for now.

What are some of your resolutions???