James

Alright. I can honestly say there are only a few times where I could say I felt God pushing me to do something. Those 100% moments where you just know in your heart that you are doing exactly what He wants. Well, I've only been that positive a few times. I doubt too much when it comes to feeling God's pull or push...as the case may be.

This is just a small example, but it meant something to me so I thought I would share.

I went to bed last night the way I usually do. I hop into bed and get on my computer. Sometimes I'll read, but that's been rare lately considering how late I come home most nights. Well, last night, I was about to turn off my light when I snuck a peek at my Bible lying innocently on my nightstand. And I swear it felt like God was yelling at me to crack it open. Not yelling in an angry way, but just pushing me to read. So me, being stupid, hesitates...only b/c in the back of my mind, I know I'm tired. But I listened to God because that would be just so stupid. I have been reading Isaiah, but honestly, I having a hard time getting through it. It's a difficult book for me to read. So I opened to good 'ol James. I remembered how much I liked it the first time I read it and thought I'd start there. I read that first chapter three times. The verses were yelling out to me. It's like I'd been craving what it said. It's unbelievable.

I thought I'd share with you guys some of the verses that struck me hard:
James 1:2-Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds...
James 1:9- The brother in humble circumstances ought to take pride in his high position.
James 1:27- Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

It's like God smacked me upside the head with those. James chapter 1 is written for anyone who works for other people. It hit me hard because I'd been complaining about my job so much lately, and I understand now why I need to go through this, because it is EXACTLY what God has called me to do. Regardless of how difficult it may be sometimes, and how I feel like I'm not really helping, I have comfort knowing this is exactly where God wants me. I know in my heart that, for now, I'm right where God needs me to be.

I pray that God carries me through this next week...and that I can find joy in the trials. Because there are and will be many.