I have a confession to make. Something I've been kind of hiding from everyone except a select few for a while.
I'm... a ninja. haha yeah, right. Just kidding. I'm too clumsy to be a ninja.
But seriously, I do have a secret. Over the summer I became quite sick of being single. More so than the usual. I'm turning 26 this month and I don't want to become a spinster, cat lady. I know, I know, I'm still young, but seriously. I've been single forever and a day now. Soo... with much hesitation and a big push from my brother, I decided to try out online dating.
It's an odd thing, this online dating. I do not like it, for one. It's so impersonal. What happened to the 'ol fashioned boy meets girl at coffee shop or girl meets boys while perusing the local bookstore? Or casual friends realize there is more there? Or friends setting up blind dates? Where have those times gone??? F'reals.
I'm horrible with the online dating. Every profile looks the same. It's like a resume, for a partner. It all seems fluffed up. No honesty, no unique-ness.
Maybe I'm just turning into a cynic. Online dating works for some people and that's so great for them. We have a wonderful knew addition to our family because of online dating. I really feel like it's just not working for me. But then, I'm left with this question... what else is there for me to do??? I've been told I need to "Put myself out there". What the crap does that mean people?!? I don't know. I attempt to pursue what I feel are prospects, but I've had no luck. Sometimes I think I'm not obvious enough, but then I don't want to seem needy (I'm so not), so I stop after a couple of failures.
So. I'm done ranting. I'm glad to have made this confession. I know in the long run, no matter what I do, what site I join, who I may have little crushes on, God makes this decision. I'm conflicted with how much God interferes, I can't just sit here and expect Mr. Right to knock on my front door and say "God sent me here for you". That's not how things happen.
So. What now?
4 comments:
Welcome to my world! Your brother suggested some to me as well, to no avail. I even used a paid one for a bit. I quit em all. If God wants me or you, for that matter, to find someone then it will happen. Preferable sooner than later. :)
I could NEVER have done computer dating services. I don't even know why, exactly. Too much like trying to find a car part, I guess. And when you show up for the date, you are the car part. How unnerving. But I have heard stories of it working out great for some people. I just think it has to do with personality types. Perhaps one way of finding someone to date is by finding someone who has tried computer dating and not liked it for the same reasons you don't like it!
Dave, I agree. I went on one date through the online dating and it was so awkward. Maybe it was just me, which is completely possible. But still uncomfortable, nonetheless.
This is not about one specific entry but most of your entries. I enjoy reading them! I am much older, but I can relate to some of the views you have just the same. I sometimes feel like the spinster woman you hope not to be..I will say this much, sometimes God sends someone when we stop looking.
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