No change.

I think I was wrong about my life being different in the next month.

It's okay though.

My birthday is this month. It's the first time I'm not really looking forward to it. I'm turning 25 and I feel like I haven't done anything with my life. Which I know is my own fault, but I don't really know what else I could be doing. I'm stuck in this young adult-adult period in my life. Your 20's are so confusing!!

And most of the time I feel like I'm living each day just wanting it to be over, and that is so wrong. I want to live life so that I'm sad each day is over and that I'm so looking forward to what the next day has to offer. It's not really running like that right now.

But I guess recognizing that is the first step to fixing it.

That's what I'll be working on...my life project.

However, GOD remains has awesome as ever. I honestly don't know how people go through life without seeking His guidance and strength. Because I know for certain I could not make it through this life without God's strength. There is no way. For that, I am grateful to have God to lean on.

So very grateful.

Change.

It weirds me out that my life a month from now could be so much different than it is now.

Or it could be exactly the same.

I guess I will eventually find out, won't I?